After reading about Beth Moore's new book on numerous other blogs, I finally purchased So Long, Insecurity. I was off from work today, so I decided to lay out in the sun and start reading the book. After completing the first four chapters, I am definitely grateful I purchased her new work. Anyone who truly knows me would tell you, I have long been plagued by unecessary, damaging insecurities. I suppose misery loves company, because it is comforting to learn that other women often struggle with the same insecurities as myself; perhaps they are just a bit better at hiding their feelings of imperfection.
As I stated in yesterday's post, I often sell myself short for fear of failure. I wish I could just let go and have enough confidence to attain the life I truly desire and deserve. I really don't understand where my insecurity originates. From the outside looking in, it would appear that I have a wonderful life...and I do. I have a supportive family, a good education and successful career. I am happily married to a man who possesses the ability to make me smile and laugh everyday. I am not gorgeous, but I am somewhat attractive--or at least not horrible looking. I am healthy. I have a beautiful home and have made a life priority to be financially independent from my husband---a decision I have never regretted. I have truly been blessed with an amazing life and I am immensely grateful. However, there still exists an impassable obstacle of insecurity that somehow prevents me from achieving the life I desire.